October's random once again =)

Last year i posted October's mayhem .. and that was very random. today im doin another random one for the sake of laychuy 's request.. and cyn told she's got nothin to read . so rite.. here's some to feed u :)
Bfor that. i came across 2 very, very meaningful songs over Utube. One moment in time, a choir version.. the other is... one song by tevin campbell. Recalls old fridays for choir practices, ah...
haven been hearin sweet sounds for a while. enjoy !
so,
What could a student be more busy than exams ... those you-know-la reason i dont even wanna talk about them, makes me puke to even think of it. and finals are just a week away. Frust? even my notes agrees with me


To start off with, i was sleepless for 2 continuous nights due to tests. yes, 2 nights.. i skipped 24 hours of rest to finish Foundation Engineering subject and it's very dissapointing to see those questions.. what's wrong with our lecturer? did we gave bad evaluations ? apparently even if you did complete the tutorial questions and remembered all the formula it's still tough. i wont complain much. the illustration says it all
Enough frustrations, updates :)

Went to Naqib's at Bangsar lately... for Raya celebration open rumah.. Thx dude, superb meal!

On my way, there weren't any car at all.. that picture shows it all.. that's why i got into a car accident. funny? first day of raya crashed my car, darn embarrassing.. But with His blessing somehow i did manage to reach in a piece. .

i know how to post something that hungers you too, girl =)
Makan makan! make yourself feel home home!

"dont worry, anywhere with good food is my new home, Oink "
(lc, not i dont wana take care of him.. some things are just out of my control.. :p )
after rendang and pulut's.. went to mine's and kill some beers..
Thats bout it.

so it's back to work... and baking class.. no, unlike hannah i didn't get to bake muffin n egg tarts.. i only went as far as molding concrete for final year project. So far, i don't think so good.


Another random:

Michelle Tan's bling bling

even my fishy fish keychain also found it's soulmate.
me? i know for He has a reason. so this time im not fallin back again =)

1 year old

The title is so random.

yes, this page turns 1 year old.. or atleast i think so.

created it in April 08, started to toss my thoughts on the following September.

1 year older. doubts the post gets any wiser.

Again as usual.. apologies for the late updates. i've actually had the thought of quitting blogging. send me some feedbacks :) as to why.. can't think of any yet.

September. A month already brother Gary left us. n i still miss him very much. The other sunday after service in Youth class, yvonne mentioned bout Gary being a friend of her friend..

that he was a christian.. and all that.. i actually got stunned. not that Cheras is that small, rather it was his Grace that was so huge. He inspired me when he lived. He changed me when he left. I realised so many things. I realised heartbreak is not when a girl rejects your flower, or that you only got A- for your test. I realised heartbreak is when u lost a friend by thinking if only u had spend more time with them. I know, i have no regrets because i've always cherished.

Because i found contentment. Thank you Gary, i actually found myself.

And i will never forget that.

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August was a very busy month.. not being very patriotic, not that i even knowin what this year's national day slogan was.. it was actually the first year i didn't catch the fireworks outside the lanscape outside the neighbourhood.

To back track a little...

been to cameron highland lately.. quite sometime ago.. wit ma homies.. shud i say nerdies?

Bungalow was cheap. 700+ a nite.. was about 70/person. it was when everythin looked so fake to our disbelieve.

Tea Garden , ( looks real huh? )

n flowers.. looks very real too !

until i realise they went dry upon reachin kl..

Play time's over, so it's back to school. Day day jemur down the hot sun doin lab.

In Engineerin term we call this concrete surfing.

In anywhere else it's called playing-a-fool-in-lab-hoping-not-to-fall-in-drain.

Just like other institutes. Wearing laboratory coat is a must.. or so as been said. ( Vincent and Bec doing what they do best. Pretending to look professional for this lab appendices photo . Again, it looks so Real! )

Due to the economy crisis .. yes.. country under recession this that. even our lab got affected.. thats why i suppose they were offering baking classes as an extra income..

And.... another thing.

-ADORE '09-

Never been to a worship concert before..

was a kick =)

Played alot of rubics cube at home.

don't ask. i had no mercy for that poor cube :(

it actually fell..

a message to up above

I may not be any close buddy with him, but he's definitely a friend worth the cherish.

These are few conversations we had over the years:

(2007 )

Him: Hey, chin leng.. you know your junior from cheras school came into uniten?
me: no.. who ar? pretty ka? ei, how u know i from cheras school ?
Him: er.. ok la.. oh it's Sheryl.. of course la .. cheras people ma.. sure know

me: wao, i doubt there are frens who even remembered cheras is my hometown.. *giggles*

That was two years ago when he was a fascilitator for the intake of the respective year. And because of that, i remembered him.

Early July, In the first two days of this semester, i bump into him and he strucked a conversation with me.
Him: "Hey, how are things with you? final year already, how was the internship? proposing for your final year project?

Me: hey.. yeah internship's good.. learned lots of stuffs.. yea final year gonna cherish it with all i can =) i gotta prepare for my internship presentation.. catch you other time k? laters =)

(24th July 2009, Uniten Gym)

When i entered the room, it was a Friday after malay prayers. there werent much people around. only him and ah yap. So we exchanged smiles. There he was sitting on the workout machine.

Him: wah, chin leng.. working out ah? haha good good..

Me: hey nolah.. just keeping a good health only.. been slacking lately. what you doing here? training for tourney huh?

Him: yeah.. got futsal match later.. varsity cosmo...

Me: ok la, catch up with u later, do few laps on the running machine first ..

And after warm up i was doing bench press at the corner. And staring the mirror i saw him sitting aside looking. There i told myself : "Canot embarasss myself.. must push more reps!"

After the reps i took a deep breath as i layed the bar on the support.. *clap clap*

he applauded me. "strong ar u.. haha" he said. "nola.. so ringan only... i bet u can do better. just that u wanna keep low profile :)" i replied. As we sat ourselves down on the carpet.. we chatted and exchanged so many informations. futsal, workouts.. all those. "Find one day we go for futsal together la.. haha" i asked. "sure sure.. haha" he replied. me, ah yap and him were the only nuts doing workout during after lunch hour. Right after all those .. we got too tired and decided to call it a day. so it was just me and him walking out.

Right infront of the Multi Purpose Hall was a booth to sign up for a marathon in the university. So i looked and asked if he was interested. he reads the route and map of the event and told me: "nah.. nolah.. not joining"

Me: "where u going now? back cheras?"

Him: " i stayin in cendi now wat.."

Me: " oh yala.. final year.. must have abit hostel life"

we both giggled.

Him: " where u parked your car ?"

Me: "that side.. "

I didn't know why i walked him a short distance knowing my car was parked at the other direction.. but i just did. maybe it's a habit. maybe it was more than that.

Him: "k la i make a move first... "

Me: "kay.. see you" , "hey... good luck for your futsal man! u can win it"

we exchanged hand shakes. He said "Thanks man .. haha" i had a little hitch over that shake. thinking what a grip he has...

And that was the last time i saw him.

Gary Leon Roberts. he took part in a marathon , at stadium Melawati, shah alam. Adidas King Of The Road. with patience, determination and perserverance he finished the race. He collapsed soon after. He reached the finish line of the race . And his Journey.

I don't know how to put it in words this time. But i know, Gary, you ain't just a hi-bye friend. i may not be one of your closest buddy. Yet i know, you're a friend like no other. You're much the good looking, needless to mention smart and talent of many kinds. A very well rounded human being and best of all. Humble. The very few reasons i don't know u that well may be that you're too humble to show yourself, your achievements. Despite winning the first round of the futsal game, he credited his competitors :" those juniors very good, their legs very fast.." a very sportmanship attitude. And at the funeral service, they announced his testimony.. despite all those perfect straight A's and Best student awards.. there was this one achievement they came across.

"The gold medalist for Varsity Cosmo Futsal Uniten." And i couldn't hold back my tears.

Gary, you're an inspiration and i believe, no one denies that.

The fact that i did extra bench press reps in the gym the other day wasn't to show off. it was because i know, if you were able to push your limits, so can i. if you were able to keep yourself that low despite achieving that high.. so can i. You inspired people, you touched our hearts, your smile redefines friendship.. This is for you Gary, we love you. you will, be so dearly missed. i'm not capable of proceeding this post. all i can say is.. Thank you Lord for sending a very good son to us, for us to be a better person, one way or the other. My prayers will be for with you, for you changed some of our lives... for you have brought happiness to some on this earth, it's time you have your happiness up above. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

I'm sure you were on 7th heaven at old trafford =)

You worked for it. You sweated for it. You really deserve it. And you deserve my respect.

Rest in Peace bro.

Gary Leon Roberts ( 1987 - 2009 )

a wish

I said before the coming post would be special. i've been very blur lately.. considering i've been running up and down rushhing assignments and rushhing for class here there everywhere this that. just thought i wanna put everything on hold for a moment. and i might have already said this to you, but somehow rather no harm dedicating it in my blog post. So here it goes:

.....Some people believe in science. And some others believe in religeon only. I.. believe in both =) you see, God didn't teach us bout science, He didn't tell us that.. gravity, G = 9.81 m/s². But Mr.Newton did. But.. Newton didn't invented gravity, he just discovered it. If there's any reason for Gravity to happen, God would be the miracle behind phenomenom such as Gravity. And science... doesn't believe in miracles. But i do, and we're both miracles ourselves. and living this life i've found a miracle in life itself. And i see it only when i look into your eyes.
If i were Newton.. i wouldn't have G represented as the universal symbol because.. to me, things don't fall due to Gravity. Things fall because of God's miracle. and it's known as U.
U is the miracle, U are the miracle that I fall. and you will always be, my one and my very.. my only claire mei yi
=]

Love is Patient,

Love is Kind,

Love isn't bout perfection,

Love isn't blind.

It does not envy,

It does not boast,

For His miracles being so many,

You'd be the one i cherish the most.

Where love isn't proud,

That you're my sunshine, my rainbow and my cloud.

Love is a language not spoken,

For u stole my heart u owe nothing in return,

For i be blessed, you be the very reason,

For Life is a journey, u made mine a fairytale,

For Love will always be, For Love never fails.

That there's no other Mei Yi, i'll ever find,

For Love is Patient,
Love is Kind.

Happy Birthday, Princess.

Signs off

-Lengz

drown in a pool of work

suprisingly there're alot of visitors in my blog :s
bout 3 - 4 (that's alot for me :D) a day .. but apologies, i've been really busy lately. and final year's much busier than was expected (perhaps i've began realising the joy of studying despite not making full use of the past 4 years in uniten) :x
Ive taken alot of pics but didnt really have time to blog about it, as i said.. the pool of work gets deeper and deeper.. and just to share a secret, i can't swim :) any pretty girl wants to giv me CPR just so im really drowned? x) anyways.. will update ma blog couple of days from now.. cz the submission of works due end of this month xD btw, for people who didn't know, just to update lil bit bout me.. i've been playin guitar lately and owh, my final year project title is Ductility behaviour of Reinforced Concrete .. (tho it may sound pro, or cool just like what some people claim to be.. it's an ordinary experiment only) nevertheless, i'm very much the blessed to be able to grab the title since it was first come first serve basis registration :)
thanks lord for this opportunity (Dr. Bashar claims i'm the first ever to run ductility test on rubber composited concrete, and my senior was the first to run shear test, where he will be taking both our result for comparison. so i guess i must be honoured ) and it's quite a responsibility also.. cuz most experiments and research for rubbercrete in development depends alot on my results.. i mean, can u imagine living under a rubber? so once again, God, stay by me . I really need the strength to get through this.. and Final Year Project is a testimonial work of my five year knowledge in university. Pray for the best :)
signing off
-Leng

The end of june starts with a random.

The past 3 months:

This is where i sit every morning

If not jamming the photocopier on the 2nd floor.

3 friggid months ago i was still an innocent newbie.. came in with nothing. still remembered the first day. I knew nothing. 3 months ago.. everything was fresh.

In the meeting room:Three months later.. i've advance so muched. improved fairly. so much have changed. It was a new me!

cuz i have a personal space to sleep..

and wake up with a poker face

that's not too bad personally..
And part of my job is to entertain people with H1N1's.. hehe

And i get to design my own wall-papers? wanted to stick Michael Jacko's poster up there but boss wasn't that much of a fan.

Speaking of him.. i suppose that would be the shocking news of the month. But then again.. people never appreciate it when he was around. Not especially the media. That's human, we never appreciate someone's presence.. people are pintpoint to their mistakes and remember it instead of their deeds. it just happens. Some how it's just a part of life. people come people go.

So .. back to work :s and that was on the last day of my internship. That's 2 sad issues..

Rewinding the tape of June: I sent my bestie off to Sheffield. Another best friend left me. always wondered why people that appreciated me have to leave. It's really lonely here back in nasilemak-land. It's really dull.
There's no one to listen me whining when im emo. June o June.. it passed so fast, it passed so meaningless.
And i miss you both very much.

my..

Laughter - its always the best of medicine
Keeps us happy smiling and pleasant
I'm happy smiling and you're the very reason.

you're my very strength.. and you're my weekness,
I love you and let God be the witness,
That i'm here for with you, through the sweet's and bitterness,

I may not be perfect, i may not be charming,
But because of you i'm myself, i'm chinleng,
And because of you being my everything,

I was the odd and you were the even,
The day we met and you looked me in the eyes,
Thats when i catch a glimpse of heaven

Never lost any, but fate has left me searching,
As far as time will take me, you will still be my angel ..without wing.
Everything has an end, but you ..will always remain as my very Begining.